I hope all is well with you all! Things have been pretty good on my end. I just wanted to update you...I have been loc'd for 4 1/2 years now and the top half of my locs are RED now and they're having another growth spurt. :) Here are some recent photos. Thanks for continuing to follow me and be blessed!
We have all had those moments where something happens that we did not see coming; whether we weren't paying attention or just did not see any "signs". How do you react though when it has to do with your relationship with your significant other?
Generally, two people in a relationship know when things are not going as well as they should, just as they know when all is well. Well what happens when everything seems to be peachy and then BOOM your significant other reveals that they want to take a step back? Do you say okay, whatever makes you happy? That is the ideal "mature" answer and even though you may manage to utter those words, how much do you really mean it? The way we respond to our significant other is contingent upon how emotionally invested we are.
Unfortunately this happened in my relationship recently. Emotions aside, I can't say it's a bad thing, it may be a blessing in disguise.
Long story short: So everything in my eyes are fine and I was pretty sure he felt the same. We would still spend time together every weekend and 1 or 2 days during the week. He told me he had some things he needed to work on with himself. I cringe at the "it's not you, it's me" explanation, but I can appreciate him not leaving me in the dark. He has still been very supportive of me and hasn't gotten out of character so to speak. So that brings me to my current state: confused and numb.
I honestly felt emotionally drained because I have given a lot throughout this relationship. Then I had several WHY? moments and SICK TO MY STOMACH moments. That is when I realized how much I actually loved him. I have been trying to slowly detach myself because it's really just too much for me; that is, however, easier said than done. I have been focusing on myself, work, school, etcetera, but part of me just cannot completely let go. I have never been this way with others I have dated, the break was always quick and easy. I just can't let go . . .
I have not posted in nearly four months. All is well, I have just been busy getting my life into some kind of order. Working, moving, and now preparing my son for a new school year. I also wanted to test out mobile blogging again so if this post is visible, and seamless, then I will ATTEMPT to blog more. :) I hope all is well with you all. Bless.
I have been in "my season" for a while now...since the beginning of 2009. Many blessings have been poured down on me and I am grateful for each and every one.
First, it was challenging, but I have graduated from nursing school!!! If I could shout that from a mountaintop, I would! The graduation ceremony is in June and I am looking forward to it. In the meantime, I will be taking boards and looking for a job. I am looking forward to all that the future has to offer. To anyone reading this that needs some encouragement...NEVER GIVE UP ON/LET GO OF...YOUR DREAM! I won't get into exactly how long it took me, but although I am young, I have been trying to accomplish this for quite some time! When your parents or role models tell you "you can be anything and do anything you want" it is TRUE. Just grab hold and don't look back. When roadblocks seem to come out of nowhere...take a detour.
Next, while I was trying to force myself to get back on the dating scene...Mr. Right came along...yeah, like out of nowhere. I can say, however, my eyes were open and I'm glad they were. God has a sense of humor too, and often blesses us when we least expect it. I had prayed for a man with his qualities because the Lord tells us to ASK for what we want. We may not get it WHEN we want it, but it is okay to ask. After I prayed, I continued with my life and had faith that my prayer would be answered.
Finally, I went back to church today...and boy did I miss it. The word was awesome and I had a great time. I am glad I will have more time to worship in the house of the Lord.
I hope all is well with you all. Until my next post, be blessed!
So below are the descriptions of three guys I was considering dating:
1. Met him through his cousin, very nice young man, respectable, driven, educated, has very strong religious views, no children
2. Nice guy who has showed interest for a while, never took him seriously, jealous tendencies, hard worker, has children
3.An old friend, admirable, educated, accomplished, respectful, we grew apart i.e. LIFE, but now seem to have the same life interests, no children
The first guy I crossed off of the list is #2...I mean come on...jealous tendencies...NO, not going to entertain that. Like I said in the Decisions...Decisions... post he was a cool guy, but I was not willing to take the risk of getting in too deep with him and his inferiority complex.
Unfortunately #1 & #3 did not really get a chance...hear me out...lol. #1 has great qualities, but is very stern when it comes to his opinions. I can respect someone who stands up for what they believe in, but I am very headstrong myself and I knew we would butt heads regarding values, etc. #3...again, great qualities, but I have learned before to be wary of people from my past...they are there for a reason.
I can say, however, that throughout the short-lived "dating" process, what I like and what I don't like was reconfirmed. And that is a good thing.